Dilemmas

So today 

was pretty uneventful. All I did today was clean and do groceries. Bleh, what a boring day. I was waiting for my boyfriend to text me all day today which he never did... it really makes me wonder. I texted him when he was supposed to get off work and of course no response. It really makes me wonder what he's doing, he has all the time in the world to just take 2 seconds to text me but he doesn't. Maybe I should just tell him how I feel or something. I'll be hanging out with him all day tomorrow so hopefully then I can tell him how I feel. I just wish I could find a gut like my friend's boyfriend. He's nice, caring and he would do anything for her. A few days ago when they go into a big fight and she wanted to break up he cried all day and then came to see her to try to make things right. That's the kind of guy I want but I never seem to find someone like that...~Sigh~ Life is so cruel sometimes... On a good note however, my new phone is coming tomorrow so I'm really happy about that. I've been having to use my mom's phone since my phone broke a while ago. So I think it's gonna be nice to finally have a phone that I don't have to share with someone. So yea...that's all for today I guess. Hmm I guess my question for the day is: If you could imagine your perfect man/woman what would they be like? 

Love,Just a girl 

First post

I wanted to start this blog 

as a way of just venting my feelings out. Lately, I feel as if I have no one to talk about feelings and stuff and I just need somewhere to vent. Hence this blog was made. This is more to be like a diary, if you wanna read, it's cool. I just need somewhere to clear my thoughts. (Before I have an internal meltdown x n x)

So today, I found out that the guy I like had a status thing on this app. talking about how he had a wife. Of course he is too young for a wife, so I question him about it but he said that it was just a joke among him and his friends. This has got me feeling very uneasy. In the past, I've been cheated on and lied to so I can't honestly just take someone's word for it after all that I've been through. I just wish that I could read people's minds, I think that would make my life 10x easier. So now I'm just sitting here with so many thoughts going through my head. Maybe I'm just silly or just paranoid. Bleh x n x. Other than that I think I've been doing alright. I can't wait to go to night it up with my friends. Been a long time since I've hung out with all my friends in a long time. Maybe it'll take my mind offa all this craziness. Well anyways, that's all that I have to say for today. If you're reading, my question to you is have you ever been cheated on? Did it affect your future relationships? 
Thanks~
Love, just a girl.